Monday, January 24, 2011

Epiphany

Grandtots,

She's haunting me. It means something. I was paralysed. Looking for signs. I let the moment pass me by. I was afraid. And now I'm ashamed.

There are 2 million people in this city I love. I'll probably never see her again. I knew all that. And...it still wasn't enough. And it means something. It means something about me.

I'm not the man who could act without thinking. I don't feel outwardly worthy. I thought my way out of acting on the feeling. And it was a very real feeling.

I always thought that if the moment came, the feeling would move me. The feeling would quiet my doubts and fears. Instead the feeling floored me.

I've been dreaming about her. Please God, give me another chance.

- K